It coulda been me…

This is a response to the shootings at Virginia Tech. I was shocked to read his profile because it was a ringer for me during a good span in my life. I talked with a friend who felt much the same way. We explored for a moment the dangerous thoughts of knowing how he felt, knowing we were in a place where we thought of and considered similar actions. Knowing the pressure that can be on you when you feel 100% outside, and the cracks I fell through, I feel perhaps more sad for him, to have no way out of his misery except that which he chose. Anyway, its quick and rough, but I give you “It coulda been me” :

It coulda been me Going to school at V – T It coulda been me Alone, cold and angry

I mean, I never thought I’d live past 23 And if I’d lived, I would never be free Now I am thirty-five and shocked Because it could have been me

Every day life bearing down Sucking me under making me drown Laying awake, dreaming of escape Because it could have been me Going to school at V – T It coulda been me Alone, cold and angry

I am afraid of everything cruel or kind It takes a toll and bends the mind Mostly afraid of one day SNAP Because it could have been me

No one to listen, no to one care No one to love, no to one share Alone with this brutal legacy Because it could have been me

Violence is my first and last choice I hate you because I have no voice I write and joke and talk Because it could have been me Going to school at V – T It coulda been me Alone, cold and angry

For his despair, I take responsibility For this my part in the patriarchy And the sorrow I feel Because it coulda been me

(cross posted at GPI)

Posted by Andrew     

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